Its been so long since I updated my blog. Hi there, again, I want to say that I'm doing fine. It's been three weeks of lectures+tutorials, and things began to make me stretch my legs, hands, and brain? Well, legs because I need to walk to class lah! Hands pula, I need to always do tutorial(but actually haven't touched any) and brain! AHA! This one, I'm proud to say that I did! haha
Well, I'm a new student in advanced diploma now. This one matches my title today kan??? =)
I also have new classmates, and lecturers, etc! Everything is new, and it is good! Well, sometimes, we do have new bad behaviours. I don't know you whether you all ever encounter this before. But I did. And this is not pretty at all! haha.
trying to change this bad behaviour of mine. Although its hard. Ever heard that people say it is hard for one person to change. Especially the ones with the bad attitude kah or something? As long as bad, it is not easy lah~! Well, maybe mines is the bad one. And think again, I got a lot of it!
Well, being align with what my senior pastor is teaching now, the grace series. It's hard to change by yourself, using your own effort. It's hard actually, because by the end of the day, there is only two answers. 1. You might not be doing it again(the bad attitude thingy), but you will end up weary and might develop another bad attitude of yours. 2. You will keep on doing it until it became worse! So people, choose yours! haha, I'm just joking. I myself had been in the no.1 and no.2 before. Just as I said, my senior pastor had been teaching this grace series. And now, I pretty much choose it to overcome my own problem.
Hm, I just feel like flipping the pages of my bible, but something came across my mind, the book of Romans. Well, I opened that and take a look. Lo and behold! haha, chapter five is screaming to me to read it! It will be horrible lah if it really screams. haha. (al kitad macam dirasuk hantu)... ok, again, ignore my foolishness please and tq~ haha
Then, I read lo. Actually, I wanted to read chapter 5 only. But, I goes on till chapter 7. So, as it said lah, chapter 5 is about death in Adam, life in Christ. Chapter 6 is the one that caught me deeply. Actually, its the 3 chapters also lah!
what I've learnt :
1st- Therefore, as though one man's offense judment came to all men, resulting in condemnation, even so through one Man's obedience many will be made righteous. Roman 5:19
2nd- Therefore, do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts. And do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and you members as instrumnents of righteousness to God.
Romans 6:12-13
3rd- For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23
The lust mentioned up there isnt't just lust for sex kah or something, but also in other things that is not good. Well, I myself got few. Hot tempered, etc... I tried changing things using my own way. Last time, when something gets into my nerves, I felt so angry that I wanted the person, or things to get what they deserve. The ones that make me look like a fool in everyones eye, I will make that person pay for it. But saying things that will cause them to be like a fool too. Well, this is pulling them down right? I tried changing this attitudes. At first, I can handle it pretty much. But when its off the limit, then I started to do the second part, which is my attitudes are becoming worst, and out of control.
Family& friends told me to change, but I just cant! But, the grace of God is always so much, it contained all of this. When I start to believe in God, all things change. Today, I'm not like what I am before. It is great to have all this stinky attitudes being cut off from me. But, just like what I said, all things are new. Some people may develop new bad attitudes. Well, I'm the "some people". haha
But, He always takes it away from and for me. I'm not saying that now he takes away, then I'm totally free from bad attitudes. But then, at least, I'm changed, the way I like it, and the way He likes me to be. By then, all things are new, because when He takes, He gives somethings too. E.g. If you are someone that gets so emotional and lonely, He will take that "emo & loneliness" away from you, then He(G0d) will give you joy, and you wont feel the loneliness anymore. Well, note that, joy is not like happy. Hapiness can last very short,but joy, it is different. Happy= went out with friends, laugh your heads off something funny, or even bought a new dresss that totally kills all the boys that looks at you, because you look totally amazing in it. that my dear, is happy.
Joy- its from your heart. Do you even feel that before? That feeling, to be honest, is undescribeable. And you dont hear people say, "oh, I got so much joy today when I went shopping with Amy...". But instead, you will say that you are happy that you went shopping with Amy today! thats the difference. ok, back to the agenda. haha. Well, he takes your loneliness, he gives you joy.
so there you have it, brand new stuff! come and get it! haha... But remember, all of this, is by the grace of God. So, you pray that God will take it away. Not by your own might, not by your own power, but by the Lord.
